Unpretty

My mumps is getting worst today. Damn I hate this illness! I tried avoiding looking at the mirror as I don't wanna see my reflection but when I got inside the bathroom, whoa! I saw an alien-looking creature staring at me. I have to accept that this is how I look right now and not deny it! Both my jawbones swelled and it sores a lot whenever I chew. I wanted to eat whenever I am hungry but who would love to eat when everything hurts? After I took my breakfast this morning, I felt the most excruciating pain. No wonder some people loss their appetite but I didn't! I am damn hungry and I even want to eat the chocolate cake my husband bought for me last night but I just can't finish eating it!!! I even talked like C-3PO, like not opening my mouth normally as not to trigger the pain. I only felt relieved when I put cold compress in both my jaws, so, just imagine how I'd look..hey, don't laugh!

And no matter how I tried to fix myself, Yoda of Starwars or Fiona the Shrek is more good-looking compared to me. Late last night, I felt a sudden slight of depression and self-pity. Why this had happened to me? I wish it happened before or after my hospital rotation as I don't intend to extend my 3-month duty with them. Even when I was still in school before, I don't like to be absent. But then I have to face reality. I prayed instead and hoped that my husband and daughter will not suffer the same illness that I am currently having.

And since it was Valentines yesterday, I tried sending messages to some of my friends but I didn't get any reply from them. Maybe they all don't have loads in their phones, huh? The people I least expected to text me were the ones to greet me instead. So sweet of them to remember me. And a dear friend, Soul Anchor, brightened up my night, too, as she lent to me her Twilight book. I know some of you have read this book already but you know, it is sold like hotcake in here. I started reading last night and I just can't put down the book anymore. I made use of my time that I was able to grab some opps before finally hitting off to bed.

Anyways, today, I am very much looking forward to my road to recovery, to look PRETTY once again and see my daughter, Chloe, and give her my tight, big hug.