Tuesday, November 3, 2015
I’ve been battling different kind of illnesses a month ago. It sucks… Dyspepsia or indigestion was not a big joke. I thought I’d die of pain. But since I wanted to get well for my family, especially to my 5 and 12 year old kids, I went to see a doctor for a checkup. They prescribed meds for my tummy ache and told me to refrain from eating meat, poultry or dairy food for the meantime but eat only foods high in fiber or anything soft, soup included. From the result of my cbc, it was found out I had also UTI so the doctor prescribed antibiotic. I guess that explains why I suddenly experienced chills anytime of the day or worst, at dawn.
I also thought I swallowed fish bone because it had been weeks since I felt ‘funny’ in my throat. But when I could not take it any longer, I went and see an EENT specialist. There he told me that I had pharyngitis and allergic rhinitis and it’s already chronic. I felt bad for myself knowing that in just 2 days, I’ve had these kinds of illnesses. But since I aimed to get well, I bought all the prescribed meds by the doctor. Anti-allergy medicine is now a must in my life...
Anyways, I was glad that in a week’s time, my indigestion disappear but I had a big fear on this illness that I refrain from eating more than I could take and I also refrained from drinking soft drinks. However, there were times that I experienced stomach pain and it turned out to be gas but it was still quite painful. Thinking about my young kids scares me because I know I am not yet ready to depart in this world. Who would take care of them especially my youngest child who is quite delayed with her speech? I really prayed so hard to make me well because of my children. I gave up everything for them, didn’t even work to focus on them and I’m their only sole caretaker, I never hired a yaya or a helper for 5 years so imagine if I get sick. I pray that the Lord will always guide me and help me get better. Even today I pray that everything’s going to be fine, that all of us are free from dreaded illnesses and diseases and away from bad incidents or accidents. These were my constant prayer every single day. And I pray, that the Lord will not get tired of hearing my daily prayers.
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
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I am bringing this good news, especially to all musicians reading my blog, to let you know that there are plenty of instruments to choose from this site and they really offer it for a very low price! I suggest you go there because the offer is limited. I wish you luck and have fun playing with your brand new acoustic guitar!
Sunday, August 9, 2015
My 2 girls just turned 5 and 12 last month and I am so proud for the both of them. They have brought much happiness and joy in our family and I am so thankful for giving me and my husband these two beautiful girls.
Although I am not a perfect mom, I'm trying to be there for them as much as I could, to guide them and to help them in any way I can. I will always thank the Lord for them and will always pray for their protection, for safety, guidance, good health and happiness because that's a mom's (or a parents') biggest wish.
To my Chloe and Zoe, know that mom and dad are always proud of you! Love you so much and belated happy birthday greeting here in my blog :D ♥
I have always thought of reinventing our kitchen because I want to prepare and cook food comfortably. I can live with a tiny space but the arrangement is quite confusing. Our cupboards or cabinets need to be changed because it didn't work well with the area, even the color didn't blend well. Thanks to ovisonline.com, the site I found online because it gave me an idea how to make our kitchen look good.
Now, I'm quite excited as to what will I purchase first. I just can't wait to rearrange and make our kitchen a good new look!
Thursday, July 16, 2015
I am beyond disappointed with my eldest child lately. How can I help her if she herself doesn't try her best? She's a smart girl but lately she's been so lazy doing her own stuff. She used to get high grades the previous years, now, it seems impossible. She doesn't do her assignment if not being told, doesn't answer her book properly if I don't get mad and most of the time, doesn't write her assignments in her notebook and all she reasoned out was: I Forgot!
She knows very well I will loose my patience if she does all those things but until now she kept doing it. I can't help but scold her and said a lot of insults because I was frustrated already. It's like she became rebellious and rude. She may cry today but the next week she will do all the things that pissed me off! I so hated to scold her but I can't help it, she's really giving me a headache.
When she got low grade in her Filipino and also math, I had her tutored. Her strength were English, Science, Computer subjects and others so I was not quite bothered in these areas. But last night, to my horror, I saw a lot of low scores in her science book and some she didn't even bother to answer! She may have aced her long test by getting a perfect score in science, she may have answered her oral tests but her books says otherwise. It will surely pull her grades down. And her reason for not answering? She felt drowsy. The rest, she told me it's not going to be recorded. But I don't believe her. Maybe some pages will not be recorded but I'm sure others are!
She also had science test today but she only informed me last night and to think they were already told the previous day that they will have a test. I didn't see the reminder in her notebook because she wrote it in her cellphone! I don't even bother to read her phone. And she didn't even tell me!
I feel so frustrated, so disappointed that my effort to help her were not utilized. I mean how can I help her if she does not also help herself? How can I approach a person if in the end she tried to block you? And if I'm talking to her about the consequences of getting low grades or if I am talking to her about how I felt about it, she instead talk back raise her voice as if she's the mother. How would I react? Of course against my will, I cannot help but scold her. Worst scenario is I pinched her or slap her leg. I cannot help it anymore and I know I will always be a bad mother for doing this.
I swear I prayed and prayed for her and it's as if my prayers were not answered. But why it should be? The person I'm praying for definitely doesn't pray at all.
I am not actually asking her of a perfect grade but a least give me a good and passable score in all her subjects. Yes, she's an honor student since 1st grade but starting last year she acquired this bad habit of always forgetting and trying to provoke me.
Now, it seems everything is getting worst. I don't even know how to deal with her anymore. The only thing I could think of is to confiscate or ground her for using gadgets.
Maybe I am just too strict but I kept telling her I will not scold her for no reason at all. And she knows so well what are the things that made me angry yet she's doing it over and over again. She's only in 6th grade. I am horrified to look into the future where she will turn worst.
Even at home she seldom helps me unless I asked her to. Even when she does things she kept on whining. It's only when I get sick that she tried to assist. Sometimes, I feel I don't know her anymore.
Despite all the things I poured out in here, I still love her because she's my daughter and she came from me. I hope one day she realizes all my sacrifices for her. I gave up everything for my children and even spent so much just to give them good education. I hope they will also try their best because that's what I only asked from them especially with my eldest.
I know I am not perfect, I am not even a role-model because I said a lot of things when I am mad. But I know I am not a bad mother because all I care is them. I wish my eldest sees that. But right now she's too blind to see but that's okay. But I hope realization comes soon because I am not getting any younger and I feel like I'm getting sick every time I scolded her. I feel like I could not breath and my heart crushed like I might not be able to move.
I prayed so hard for my kids to grow up into respectful and God-fearing ladies. But right now, I don't know if these were heard at all. I am beyond hurt and disappointed and it's only thru here that I want to pour my heart out. My blog may be a public venue but I'm sure I've few readers here so at least only a few will know. I don't want to embarrass my child or myself further that's why I opted not to post in fb or instagram but only here.
And I'd much appreciate it if you could pray for us... I guess we need that from other people. And thank you for your understanding, for not judging me (us) and for including us in your prayer.
I still hope that one day, realizations will come to the both of us.
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
I bet my uncle, who is a musician and whom all of us look up to, would be happy to know that there is still a custom release of rosewood tele guitar. My uncle is so good in playing any musical instruments but he he is into guitar more. My brothers and other cousins idolized him because he is really so good. Too bad I did not get this talent from him.
Anyway, if you are also interested to own this 2007 limited release, why not order it now?! This guitar is classic and would be a great addition to your vintage collection.
Friday, June 5, 2015
I can't believe my kids' summer vacation is almost over. A week from now, they will be back in their regular classes. I will be missing the noise and arguments with my kids especially with my eldest, hehe. But I guess I'll make use of the time when they are at school. Well, I dunno...
Anyway, here's a photo of my youngest daughter doing her jump-shot during our summer outing with the family. I so love this photo so I'm sharing it with you here. This will remind me the beauty of summer in 2015 ;-)
Saturday, May 30, 2015
If you are a musician, I bet you have several musical instruments at home. It's easier to practice at home before performing live on the stage. However, make sure to put these instruments to its proper place to avoid untoward accidents. Even with your Woodwinds & Brasswinds, try to buy a holder or stand to keep them safe. I have read online that the 5-leg Trumpet Stand base is highly recommended, the one that features a black plastic peg with felt pads to protect the instrument. This can be ordered online on a very low price so why not try to check them out now?!