Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Happy Birthday, Glenn!

Today is my husband's birthday. I wish him all the best, all the happiness and all the love in this world. I wish that we grow old together and see our daughter grow up, finish her studies, land a good job and have her own life to live and decide...

Anyway, my husband celebrated his birthday at home with our immediate families. At first, we were planning to have a simple dinner at a restaurant, just the three of us, but was changed. He decided to celebrate it with our families - because that was always been the tradition - and I wanna celebrate, too, because I just ended my 3 month training at the hospital. Don't get me wrong, the experience I had at the O.R. was great...it's just that, the atmosphere is not healthy. I'll just share it later because I'm suppose to blog about my husband's birthday here, hehe.

Well, the celebration was great and I think everybody was fully sated with the food (I hope they were). And now, my husband had fallen fast asleep because he's already very tired.

To my husband, Glenn, happy happy birthday!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Dance with my Father

"If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love to dance with my father again"

I'm not really a sentimental type of person, I don't even cry watching some tear-jerking movies. But there's only one thing that usually breaks my heart - a scene involving a father and a child (a daughter, most especially).

Last Saturday, we attended my cousin's wedding. My husband and I were cord sponsors, Chloe was a flower girl and my mom was a principal sponsor. During their program, my cousin danced with her father with a very beautiful background music that I can't help but got me teary-eyed. The music played was so touching that it somehow broke my heart. I was not able to dance with my father because he already passed away a year before. My last dance with my dad was when I was 18 years old - it was my debut.

Seated beside me at the reception was also another cousin of mine, and my aunt, and we were teasing each other because they were crying, too, haha! Anyway, I was very happy for my cousin because she was happy to see all her loved ones present on her big day.

I researched at the net the next day about that song played at the wedding and I found it! The title was Dance with My Father sang by Luther Vandross. I'm sharing with you the video and the lyrics (and our some of our pics, too) and I insist that you see & listen to the music. You can see some famous personalities in this video, too. The music is really beautiful and the message is so meaningful.

Wedding pic together with the bridal entourage

My Big smile :) & with Chloe (my husband took pics of us)

Monday, April 20, 2009

Mood Swing

Lately, I was not so in the mood. I tried to control whatever emotions I have felt inside but just can't help it. Then, I've realized I was having my PMS until finally my red letter day arrived and this is usually what I felt. And I just hope that people will distance themselves away from me or at least try not to provoke me or else I'll explode (",). But I don't think this is an excuse. I felt guilty afterwards but then if only the people around me will at least try not repeat their words over and over again, then, perhaps I'll keep quiet. Coz I easily get irritated these days and the more they justify things the more I would reason out. I don't start a fight but I also don't run away from it. Sigh, so much for my mood swing. I hope to get over this now.

Monday, April 13, 2009


I remember I made a promise to Niko that I'm going to post a pic of myself doing some stuff at the hospital, in action. Well, here it is...dunno if you'll recognize me :)

Scrub Nurse. Serving the surgeons with clamps, Allis, Mixters, sutures, etc...
(I made some pics blurry in here to protect the privacy of others ;) )

Circulating Nurse. Charting/nurses notes, prep the patient, manage the area, interview patients

Striking a pose after an 8-hour shift. With co-trainees (me on the L side)

My Nursing Years (Capping, Graduation, Oath-taking, Thanksgiving)

Capping Ceremony; with 1 year old Chloe

Holding Nightingale's lamp & receiving the Bible

Pinning & Graduation with hubby ;)


Oath taking Ceremony

Thanksgiving Party (posing with Chloe)

    Life At the O.R.

    I had a long holiday last week because we (trainees) were given a holiday off by our OR Head Nurse and Supervisor. And so Monday came and I went on duty. To be honest, I'm kind of tired already, hehe. I like the experience but extending it for another 3 months is not on my plan. For one, I don't receive any incentives, therefore, no motivation :D But anyways, I've gain knowledge thru this experience and with that, I am thankful. Another reason is that I am planning to go on with my nclex review and third, I plan to go out of the country again but I still don't know when.

    Going back to my OR training, there were times when I really enjoyed working in there but there were days that I was also stressed out. Sometimes, I just don't get the surgeons blaming the nurses why we gave them instruments that were not good. But why blame us? We only serve and wash the instruments. It's them who were using it frequently. But I also knew that some of these instruments need to be replaced, too. I just hope they would communicate to us fairly. Aren't we a team? And there were some staff, too, who would let us carry all the burden even we're not that experienced with the job. They expected too much, but of course, I want to give my best, too. Actually, it also depends of what kind of a person he/she is. Some were really helpful, and some, I don't know...

    But as I've said before, I am up for the challenge. So, it's either I take it or leave it. But I was glad to find out that I survived the past 3 months. I was supposed to end my 3-month training with them last week but need to extend for another 2 weeks because of my absences. Oh well, I'll just make the most out of it.

    Friday, April 10, 2009

    Treasure Map

    Have a Meaningful Holy Week to Everyone and Advance Easter Sunday ;)

    Wednesday, April 8, 2009

    What an Excuse!

    I've been trying to blog about what happened the other day but I was too tired to think about it... well, I was tired mentally, physically and psychologically. I lacked sleep and I hungered for more. :)

    Anyway, this is the continuation of my rantings the other day. I stayed up late at night, hoping that our helper would come home - intact - but I cannot also hide my annoyance if ever she'd show up.

    I finally went to sleep at around 2:30 am but I guess I dosed off past 3 am. At 5:30 am, my husband woke me up telling me somebody was knocking at our door. He knew who it was but he was very mad that he didn't want to face that person. My head was really aching but I managed to get up. And there was our house help - intact - and brought a friend along, but I sent her friend home as she has no business with us.

    She told me she went home the last night at 1 am. What a liar she was! I was wide awake at that time, even checking our windows from time to time if somebody's outside. I asked her why she did not return as she promised. She said she met her friend who invited her to a birthday party. She didn't ask my permission anymore because she said I might not allow her.

    I was so mad with what she told me. How selfish of her to think only about herself. She didn't even think we were worried and that I was even hoping that she was out from danger. And I also thought she could give me a valid reason but her reason was stupid enough. I was once young like her but never this stupid! I told her that at least she could give us some respect. She asked my permission before and I even agreed but with this kind of situation annoyed me so much! I gave her a sermon. Later my husband went down and scolded her, too. He even told her to go home because of her attitude. He said he abused our kindness towards her. But then I interfered. I still pity this girl that I told him to give her a chance. My husband asked her if she plan to stay longer. And she said she wanted to stay and work longer. And he told her if that's her plan, then she can stay but we will not be as considerate as before. And even if she stayed, we don't trust her anymore.

    Frankly, I wanted to sent her away, too. I survived without house help for a long time, so sending her away would lessen my burden. But I knew she needed work and I pitied her. Her mom even came here last week to asked for financial assistance and her relatives told her to be good, too, and to work well as they needed some help. I pitied her thinking how her family depended on her. I thought of her situation but thinking of what she did irritated me the most. The least thing we can do was to give her a chance but that would be the last. I gave her a sermon for almost an hour. I was so drained and tired that I fell back asleep after that. I was really in bad mood that day. But I felt I was very rude at the same time but also thought that it serves her right. We cannot tolerate this thing to happen again.

    Monday, April 6, 2009

    The Disadvantage

    I'm not really in the mood as I'm typing this entry. For many months, or maybe for a year, I don't have a house help but I've managed to go on with my plans in life. But I've to thanked my mom for being there when it comes to taking care of Chloe. Sometimes, we compromised our schedule especially when I decided last January to go on volunteer at the hospital.

    Sometime in February this year, a helper was recommended to me (even though I didn't look for one). I was apprehensive since she's still young but she wanted to earn and desperately wanted a job to help her family. I accepted her. She did the laundry and house cleaning (except our room) but I do the cooking. Taking care of Chloe was excluded as I look after my daughter or my mom during weekdays. And I always allow her for a day off on a weekend, but told her to make sure not to stay out late because I'm responsible of her and it's not safe to go home late at night in our place.

    Everything went ok even though at times she had lapses. I woke up early in the morning during weekdays and I sometimes found her still sleeping. Sometimes, I asked her errands that she always forgot, so, I kept on reminding her but still tried to understand her as she's still young and she needs guidance, too.

    Ok, here's the story, today, I brought her with us this afternoon to my mom's place because it was announced that there would be a power interruption in our area. I don't want to leave her alone and besides, we might be back home late at night. At 9pm, I insisted on my husband that we went home already. One of the reasons was that our helper might be sleepy as she needs to wake up early tomorrow morning. But when we arrived home, she asked permission to go out for awhile and come back home as quickly as she can, and so I agreed.....

    But it's already 12:00 AM right now and she hasn't come back yet.

    I am now about to burst my temper - but worried at her safety at the same time. I still hope that she would come back home safe and sound but she need to have a valid reason for staying out late. If she's in danger, dang! I want to take No part of it! - but then as I've said she's our responsibility. So, this is the disadvantage - I wish I didn't hire her at all because even my husband is a bit mad already... sigh..

    Saturday, April 4, 2009

    Check Out Nyce Billy

    Do you go for hip hop music? If so, you will surely love the songs by the new artist, Nyce Billy. He is a 20-year old rapper born and raised in the Bronx, NY. His interests include basketball, football, and music.

    Nyce Billy realized he had a true passion for music and decided that he wanted to become a rap artist. At the age of 16, he and his friends started a rap group called "O D Camp," which stood for Over Due. He was known as "Young Nyce" at that time.

    But the group disbanded after two years and everyone decided to go on their separate ways. Young Nyce became known as "Nyce Billy." With this new image, he got to work and completed several songs on his own. The song that helped Nyce Billy to establish a true fan base was "You Madd," featuring Jae Millz.

    Nyce Billy won first place at the Faces in the Crows Showcase that gained him some respect and international recognition. And recently, he has just signed under Everything to Gain Entertainment out of NYC. And his single “Pour On the Floor” is blowing up in clubs and soon on your radio. Check out Nyce Billy's page and hear his music, too, at myspace.


    Friday, April 3, 2009


    Got this tag from Phebie Luv. I captured a pic of Chloe while she was dancing and watching TV at the same time. Even though this picture looked blurry, I love the result. Everything looked so natural... Chloe was still 2 years old in this picture and with her long and never been cut (since birth) wavy hair.

    A good Snapshot stops a moment from running away

    When you photograph people in colour you photograph their clothes. But when you photograph people in B&W, you photograph their souls! ~Ted Grant

    Now, Here is the rule in doing the Tag:

    Copy the quotes above from start copy to end Copy.
    Replace the Photograph with your own or your loves ones' Black and White captured moments that you want to cherish for the rest of your life.

    Tagging all my bloggerfriends listed in my bloglist. Have Fun!