Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Stubborn Love

Caught again, Your faithless friend
Don't You ever tire of hearing what a fool I've been?
Guess I should pray, But what can I say?
Oh it hurts to know the hundred times I've caused You pain
Though 'forgive me' sounds so empty when I never change
Yet You stay and say 'I love you still'
Forgiving me time and time again

It's Your stubborn love that never lets go of me
I don't understand how You can stay
Perfect love embracing the worst in me
How I long for You - stubborn love

Funny me, Just couldn't see
Even long before I knew You, You were loving me
Sometimes I cry, You must cry too
When You see the broken promises I've made to You
I keep saying that I'll trust You though I seldom do
Yet You stay and say You love me still
Knowing someday I'll be like You

And You never let me go
I believe I finally know
I can't live without Your stubborn love.

Are you familiar with this song? If you don’t, this song was sung by Kathy Troccoli, one of my favorite soul singers. I knew this song when I was in College. My husband, who was then my boyfriend, would play the guitar for me while he let me sing. And even now that we’re married, we still do sing it together. I get so moved every time I sing or listen to this song. Who wouldn’t? Just read the lyrics (if you don’t know the tune) and you will know what I mean.

I used to be an active member in a religious organization back in College. After I graduated, I joined another similar organization, but one for young professionals. However, after getting married, I haven’t been participating anymore because of conflicts in my schedule (family, school, chores, etc.). But even then while I was an active member, I often experienced spiritual dryness. I tried choosing my own path, yet I still felt empty and lost in the end. The scripture and some inspirational books helped me find my way. Christian songs were a great help, too. They do soothe the soul. Even now that I’m not a member in any organization, I still listen to these kinds of music and reflect on the things that I’ve done. Many times have I faltered, turned my back on Him, yet in the end, with bended knees, I ask for His forgiveness and return to Him. God’s love for me is really so stubborn. And I thank Him for not letting me go.


Umma said...

Cant find ur shout box Sis.. i think its not working sometimes so just left message here..
Thanks for dropping by.

Phebie said...

hi cokz, same here i really like that song...God never fails to love us no matter what we do...He loves us because we simply exist....God Bless!

Karen said...

hey cooks! i'd love to hear that song... if you have a cd of it, may i borrow it so i could copy? see u 2mrw! hugs