Hi! Sorry for being 'silent' for a while. I was quite busy... Or shall I say, I have other more important matters to attend to that updating my blog is quite a luxury for me to do.
Even in my social media accounts (Facebook, Instagram) were hardly updated. Although I often check them from time to time, but sharing something on my wall or page takes a lot of effort for me to do.
Actually, I've so much to say and so much to share...but in the end, I chose to be silent. I always weigh things if they are good or worthy to share. I do believed they are worthy but decided in the end to keep things to myself (yet) if I'm not ready to be bombarded with questions that I don't have time to reply.
Yes, I guess I'm like that 🤔 - always contemplating that in the end, I'd rather keep things and let my lone self worry about it.
Sometimes, it's ironic that I tend to share some personal stuff to people not really that close to me but somehow respect my personal views. More often that not, I really wanted to talk to people who already build a relationship towards me but I tend to hold back when I remember the things they say or their opinion towards other people before it happened to me.
I mean they gave a not so nice opinion to others about something. And a year (or years) later, that something happened to me (or to my family - my kids, especially). So, can you blame me for not sharing it to them instead?
It's actually quite surprising that some people who are not my bff or my kins are the ones who are most sensitive to what I feel. They're the ones letting me feel that it's okay to be quiet and it's okay to share when I'm ready. They also respected my privacy by not sharing to others what I went thru. They're only a handful you know, and I appreciate that. They're the people I lest expected to lend me an ear (and hand, if necessary) should I feel down. Privacy is everything to me. That's why I also do the same to others should they asked for it. I don't just share some details of my close friend to another close friend especially if it doesn't concern them.
But there were also instances that some people not really close to me, who at first shared concern to my woes, and later managed to unmasked my weakness and tried to sound concern wherein actually, they just insulted my well-being.
Well, I guess you're confuse with what I'm saying here in case you're reading my blog. I kept promising to share some of the things I've been thru lately or for the past years. I really do. But I'm too tired to write now ✌ I hope I can share it with you in my next entry. I'm still drafting it and hope to post it soon and (hope to) inspire others with my journey 💕