Thursday, October 16, 2008

Fear Thou Not

“I’m sorry, but your father is diagnosed with fibrosarcoma, a rare kind of cancer”. Those were the exact words my dad’s doctor told us. This happened in year 2000. My dad actually had an operation earlier that year. However, the operation was unsuccessful. He still experienced excruciating pain afterwards, even though his doctor said that the biopsy result was benign. My dad then sought for a second opinion with another doctor, who doubted the result of the first biopsy. He referred my dad to Makati Medical Hospital because this was beyond his capacity. True enough, my dad was advised for another operation because the biopsy results turned out malignant. On that ‘big’ day, my dad entered the operating room in the morning and was sent back to his room in the evening. After the doctor told us about my dad’s prognosis, I rushed to the hospital’s chapel and cried uncontrollably. I was angry and even blamed God for bringing this unto my dad. No one in his family ever had cancer, why him? He was a good person. I didn’t want him to die yet. I was still single at that time and how I wanted my dad to walk me down the aisle when I would get married.

When I returned to work, I was in denial when people asked me about my dad’s status. My family was in total depression. Sometimes, I would make a bargain with God, but all were unanswered. However, as months passed by, I learned to accept my dad’s condition. I returned to God and the Bible was my constant companion at that time. One of my favorite verses that helped me gain strength was from
Isaiah 41:10 which says:

Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

My dad died February 19, 2001. I was still single but I was prepared. I had witnessed how much my dad had suffered but through God’s comforting words, my family and I were able to surpass the ordeal. In fact, it strengthened my family’s faith in Him.

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Mommy Dharlz said...

hey... nice post cooks--- u're dad is in heaven, that's for sure...

Anonymous said...

hi cookie! i am sorry for your loss. but am glad that you never let go of your faith during those trying times. God will always see you through..

Shemah said...

May your dad rest in peace. I lost my father back in June 2001 too. It's still hard but knowing that he's in a better place, gets me through the day. :) Great to know that your prayers give you solace and strength! :)

Bogie said...

Hi there sis, this verse is also one of my favorite. This serves as my encouragement when times get tough. It reminds me of who God is and what He is able to do. May you continue to be comforted by God. God Bless!

Unknown said...

Hi cooks.

I knew the difficulties you were facing through at that time. We were pals in CIPI then. I have seen how you fought back too and have stood against the storm. Your dad's in heaven now and am sure he is happy seeing you leading a good life too now.

Cecile said...

cookie dear, am so sorry for your lost, i know how you feel and i am sure that your father is is heaven now. i lost my daughter five years ago, it was hard, but my faith in God helped me gets through trying times.

Cookie said...

Hi Darlz:

Yah, i'm pretty sure my dad's in heaven. Thanks!

@ Kikamz:

Amen to that. God was really with us during those times.


May your dad rest in peace, too. Thanks for the sharing. I believe both our dads are in heaven now.


You've been there & witnessed how the family cope the situation. I guess you very well knew what we went thru. Your help meant a lot, too.


You've seen me during those trying times, too. But life must go on esp we have work to do, right? hehe


I didn't know about your loss. I would be devastated, too. But I believe your little angel is in heaven right now watching over you. My prayers for you, too.

amiable amy said...

hi cookie pie...lovely as ever...but, u made me cry with this entry...he is in good hands now and the experience made you stronger in your faith of God and it made your family bonded more stronger than ever...amidst all odds and pain, you made it and move on but your father is not forgotten a bit...God bless you more!

Umma said...

Hello Lovely Cookie, your entry made me teary eyed.I understand the feeling of losing a loved one. But indeed, God has always a plan for us, he took your Dad bec HE didnt want him to suffer more. At least we know that he is painless in there and happy.

I admire you for being strong and keeping up the faith in HIM.